Kim - Age 44
Hi there, I'm glad you're taking the time to come and visit. Let me introduce myself, my name is Kim. I was born on December 17, 1957, in Ontario, Canada. I was born to two wonderful parents who were both smokers. In March of 1960, my brother Tad was born and in October of 1961, my sister Kelly was born.
I started smoking at age 12, stealing cigarettes from my parents and also stealing packs from the grocery and drug store (stealing.......its true, and I don't like to admit it). But I was a nicotine addict at 12, already needing to get a fix no matter how I got it.........sad isn't it? My sister started smoking also, my brother never did.
At age 24, I quit for 1 month, but that one pack I kept in my dresser drawer was just too tempting.
Both my parents quit smoking in 1985. That year I married Tony in June.
My Grandpa always had a cigarette, cigar or pipe in his mouth and lived to the ripe old age of 90. He died of congestive heart failure. My grandmother who never smoked a day in her life, died at 72 of bowel cancer. My aunt who is 76, has smoked for well over 50 years and is and still going strong today.
In July of 1990, I quit again, this time it lasted a year and a half. After having a few drinks at Christmas, I asked my husband for a puff and of course one lead to another and I was back to smoking full time again.
In June of 2001, I tried again, it lasted 3 days and in January of 2002 I tried yet again.......lasting maybe 4 days. I didn't really want to quit. Well I did and I didn't . Look at my grandfather, look at my aunt, my parents have no ill-effects, they are in their seventies now. Nothing is going to happen to me, I'm not a heavy smoker.
In March of 2002, I was going in to have some surgery. I was sent for pre-op tests, blood work, chest x-ray, EKG.......etc. My doctor called on March 7 to say something had showed up on my x-ray. There was a spot in my left lung. Oh my God, what does that mean exactly? I was to go and see the specialist the next day. March 7 was the last day I put a cigarette to my mouth. It was also the day my sister quit.
I saw the specialist the next day and was told it was cancer and it was very close to the heart. If it had reached the heart there was nothing they could do. When I looked at the cat scan it looked like it was touching the heart, thats how close it was. The only alternative I had to beat this was to have my left lung removed. What? Me? Cancer? Lung removed? ......no can't be, I'm too young for this.......
The next month and a half was very busy. I had a cat scan, bone scan and ultra sound, all were negative, which was good news, it was nowhere else in my body. I had stress tests, lung functions tests and I was beginning to think there wasn't anymore blood for them to take. I passed all the tests and was ready for surgery. My Doctor told me he didn't know if it had spread to my lymph nodes and he wouldn't know until he was in there.
On April 23rd they wheeled me into the operating room at 8:20 a.m. Five hours later I was wheeled out of surgery and placed in Intensive Care on a breathing machine. I was not only missing a lung, I was also missing a rib. Fortunately it hadn't spread to the lymph nodes.
Kim in ICU on April 23, 2002
I was hooked up to so many tubes and wires, but I was breathing on my own the next day. I was getting stronger everyday and everyday they would take a tube or wire off. On day five, I was tube and wire free and on day 6, I was released. I went to my Mom and Dad's for two weeks as my Mom is a retired nurse. I had home care for almost a month. A nurse came in once a day and changed the dressing on the incision.
I tire very easily, I canít exert myself in the summer humidity, as it makes it difficult to breathe, and I canít lift anything heavy. I have to do things slowly or my heart starts to beat fast. There is still a section at the top of the incision that is taking a long time to heal. Every night hot compresses are applied to help the healing. My left side is numb from the incision around to my underarm area and it really hurts to sneeze. It will be months before I'm fully recuperated.
Left lung incision site
Don't ever think this can't happen to you. I thought the same thing and look what happened to me. I'm one of the fortunate ones ...................... why? I'll never know the answer to that and I'm certainly not out of the woods yet either. I have to be checked every six months for the next three years.
Kim's Loving Sister Kelly
My sister Kelly, who took the news very hard, was trying to find information on lung cancer when she found this site just after I was diagnosed. First off she came across the "Wall of Remembrance" (a site I still cannot visit as it upsets me too much) and then on to Whyquit and Freedom. The people, education and support here is tremendous. It's the only way to quit and keep it.
You can quit! Don't let what happened to me, happen to you. It can happen to anyone and at any age. I used to believe I was above the warnings on cigarette packs, but you know what?.......they are true........CIGARETTES KILL, they almost killed me! I'm just thankful I can tell you this story instead of my family having to post it in the "Wall of Remembrance."
An Update on Kim
The green underlined links are to Freedom message threads discussing Kim & Kelly's journey
March 22, 2002 Kelly's first group message April 16, 2002 Kim's lung removal surgery is postponed April 22, 2002 A worried sister's surgery prayer request April 30, 2002 Kim's first message after lung removal surgery June 7, 2002 Three months of freedom from nicotine! August 7, 2002 Pride in having quit smoking for five months. September 7, 2002 Sterling Silver - education and support are freedom's keys December 18, 2002 Kim has a seizure, a brain tumor is discovered, her lung cancer had metastasized to her brain
January 9, 2003 "10 months +..... and wishing I was going through withdrawal instead of this!" January 13, 2003 Scheduled surgery date for removal of Kim's tumor
Kim and sister Kelly after surgery on January 14, 2003
January 16, 2003 Surgery went well and Kim is in her mom's loving care
Kim recovering, about a week after surgery
March 7, 2003 One year ago today Kim started two journeys ...
March 7, 2003 One year ago today sister Kelly did too ...
Kim pictured in April 2003 during chemotherapy.
June 6, 2003 Kim updates us on her last six months. Last chemo treatment to be June 12. As Kim puts it, "yahoo!" I have an MRI for my head booked for July 16 ...and with fingers crossed I'm hoping to hear the words "You are Cancer Free"
September 8, 2003
"So I asked the Dr ... "can you explain this hairdo?"
January 25, 2004
Adrenal gland tumor has grown
February 13, 2004
Kim's valentine day post
March 8, 2004
Kim & Kelly's two year celebration
June 23, 2004
"My sister Kim ... passed away this morning"